A wandering of an imperfect journey♥️

Good Morning, good morning, good morning! I can feel happiness, excitement and joy inside me. I can feel my heart expanding and tears building at the corners of my eyes. Gratitude, gratitude, gratitude. Thank you for today god, love, universe, or what ever. I feel fully alive in this moment and I am excited about how my day will unfold before me. Endless possibilities!

I love you, I love you, I love you! These are the words that show up in my mind as I type this. I love you, I love you, I love you. I hope you can feel my words and my energy. I want to fill you up with joy and an overall sense of love. It is the greatest gift of all and I am grateful I can feel this lovely energy in this moment within my body.

Birds outside my window and the sun shining on the lake inspired my connection to my heart and my feelings. It amazes me how simple a gift that is. Nature, nature, nature. Thank you god, divine, universe, love etc. You create a sense of awe within me and I love you for it. Thank you for the joy, thank you for the discomfort, I know it is all for my highest good and I love you, love you, love you!

Discomfort. In the past few days I have been connecting to people and environments that create discomfort within me. I wanted to run away from it and them. I wanted to cut them off like a bad appendage. Something dark, rotten, or heavy. And in this moment I can feel and connect with an ache in the deep part of my tummy. Beneath my belly button. I am sorry, please forgive me, thank you, I love you, I love you, I love you. (Ho’ Oponopono prayer that I have been practicing to heal the parts of myself that I struggle with).

What I am discovering is there is no such thing as darkness. Only a place where the light has yet to shine. I want to invite it in. I want to say hello to this dark place within me and I want to listen and feel what story it has to share with me. Grief shows itself and says I love you. I am where you are. We embrace. In my mind it is shows as two beings in the shape of a person, one white being and one fuzzy black being. As they move toward one another, they embrace, and become one. Integration. And I breathe. I am grateful. I can feel the feeling in my body shift and change and soften. I look out the window at the water and it is still and quiet and clear. A perfect reflection of the hill beside it. I know there is something significant here for me and I will sit with it. Immediately what comes to mind as I watch the ripples of water moving towards the shore is a reflection of what I just experienced within me. Giving myself permission to sit with my discomfort, allowing it to show me or tell me a story and the ripple affect of change within me that vibrates out into the world. Thank you thank you thank you.

As always, thank you for being here, even if none of this makes sense to you. Sending you loads of love and light. I hope you can feel that. XOXO