A wandering of an imperfect journey♥️

This is where it all begins. Sitting at this table wavering back and forth, do I, don’t I. It is scary for sure. Putting myself out there for all to see. Do I really want this? I am afraid. What if I fail? What if I make promises that I don’t keep. What if people are disappointed in me. What if, by the time this is all said and done I am no closer to discovering who I am or what a truly magical life looks and feels like? What if I am disappointed in myself and where I end up? Wow. I can really feel that echo in my heart. Pang. Pain. And then I think, yup, definitely doing this. No matter what. One messy day at a time. I just have to know and I can’t not take this journey.

For years I have said that I wanted things in my life and never made them happen. I think somewhere inside me I had a belief that they were frivolous. Those things had no real life value and were really hobbies meant for when I am retired. 😳 But what if those things actually are what I need to live my most magical life? What if I just started with one “wish”, master that and then work my way down the list of wishes for one year? What would I discover about myself? How would I feel?

Funny enough, this website and this commitment to myself is one of my wishes. I wanted to create something where I could look back and witness my own journey. I wanted to give myself a place that was all for me. Mistakes and all. It is all worth it in the end. I can’t not learn something by doing this and I also know it is not going to end up being what I envision it to be in my mind now. I know that it will be brilliant. Courageous and vulnerable. And I can’t wait. I can’t wait to experience EVERYTHING. If nothing else, I am tenacious and with that said, let the journey begin!